Simple Complexity

I knew that once we had a child added to our fairly simplistic lives holidays, events and all things in-between would get much more complicated. This has held true since the day that Cicely went into labor and has not let up since. The worst part of it all is that there is absolutely no reason for it and every single family member has been amazing and supportive since the announcement of our pregnancy, except one. She does whatever she wants, on top of that throws around heaps of guilt when possible yet explains the future and how its going to be, how god forgives and all of these other things related or not. It's a very strange situation to be in and I don't like it one bit.

I am of the opinion that I will simply say "fuck it", this is what is going down, this is when it's going down and if you would like to partake this is where you can stay, this is when we can pick you up, otherwise this is where we suggest getting flights, rental cars and so on. If any of the above is an issue for you I am sorry that we cannot be more accommodating, possible next time things will work out better on your behalf and we can then spend the time together. If anything changes, please let us know and we will always do our best to fit you in as you are welcome and encouraged to be a part of Zoey's life as much as possible.

Of course this would be seen or read into as something completely different and would be a total waste of typing. Not only would it stir up unnecessary rebuttal, guilt filled email replies, it would be spread like wildfire as gospel of a daughter that does not care for their mother or otherwise. When in fact the exact opposite holds true and the daughter has made every attempt to make the undeserving mother a part of everything. The problems root is that the mother follows her ways and her rules and has no regard for how it will affect those that are on the inviting end of things no matter the event, holiday or otherwise.

Birthday Agenda

This will be our little Zoey's first birthday and although she will not fully remember it we want to do our best to make it special and low key for her. So far it's looking as though it will be low key to a point but there is already stress on the horizon for us thanks to the usual suspect of said stress.

Because of all the bullshxt that went on around the Thanksgiving and Christmas holiday with Cicely's mom it has somehow managed to linger around even now, months later and not only is it affecting Cicely, because of some things that were either implied or said outright in an email from her to Cicely I am a little annoyed as well and would rather she did not come to be honest. Zoey does not need that kind of negative bullshxt anywhere near her developing personality.

I know that this will not happen and Cicely will not tell her not to show up and that is fine. The problem is that we asked her to get a hotel this time, namely because she decided to drive instead of fly so she will be bringing a friend, actually she is family of some sort.

I guess the person she is bringing has a child as well which we did not know initially and still don't know if the child will be coming with or not. Of course the plan was for her mom to stay with us, we'll in her moms mind anyway. We just don't have the space and would rather put her up at a nice hotel or resort, pay for it and make sure she is comfortable.

This way she can sleep at night, wake up and have some of her own space and we can then pick her up whenever she wants us to. Same thing in the evening, plus it builds memories rather than just sitting around the house all day long doing nothing at all.

No matter the plans are set in motion already, Cicely has been upset over the rude email from her mom pretty much the entire day off and on and that really pisses me off to no end.

Then the weekend after her birthday or possibly middle of the week on her actual birthday we will have to setup something for Cicely's dad and step mom as well as her sisters. Her brother Michael won't be able to make it. He will be in another state, Arkansas I believe is where he is now, going to school and doing baseball training and related.

All I know is her mom better not start any bullshxt and put Cicely in a mood which will put me in a mood and Zoey will feel the effects of it even if we do not act weird. Oggy is the same way and just knows when things are not right and vibes are off.

Anyway enough about all of this usual bullshxt or I will get myself all worked up over it and annoyed. Not something that I want for Zoey to deal with on her birthday. Really any-day for that matter! She needs to enjoy all stages of her life and not the crap that crops up within.

Cubed Life

Once again the week has been a real blur and with it being a short week as well the days have really flown by. I have managed to get only a handful of things done yet have many more on my plate. That always makes for an interesting week.

Oh well, not much else going on at the old cube farm besides being busy, having one of my guys come out the first week in March as well as a few other things.

Next thing I know the company will be sold and things then have even more potential to change, I hope they do not. People do not adapt well to it not do I do it becomes anxiety and hassle more than anything else.

On the way home now, want to go for a quick spin on the trainer once home so I am going to close my eyes for a few minutes while I have the chance with Cicely driving us home in my car.

Until tomorrow have a decent night and I will try to rabble some more tomorrow. Hopefully it will be much more interesting to read no matter your enthusiasm level at that time.

Photo: One of the toys at Zoey's daycare in the lambs classroom. Yea, not much to look at, well actually it is - there is a lot that goes into these toys nowadays. This was my quick, "gotta hurry up and find something to snap a shot of for todays entry or I will forget" - done!